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ok ive added a few moderation rules to my site so as long as your post do not contain anything in that list of spam words it shouldn’t be held for moderation. however if you want to register as a subsciber you now can register as a subcribers and your comments shouldnt have to be moderated. and i say “shouldnt” because thats what the documentation told me but ive no way of testing it until someone comments.
EDIT: click login tab there should be a registration link there if you would like to register as a subscriber

I am myself, Nothing more

I am myself, Nothing more

How does the light fall dripping,
from the source beyond,
encapsulated in a memory,
of a time far gone.
A time apart, set quivering, still upon the stone.
A time yet not meant to be, for me,
because I am still alone.

Yet the rain continues falling,
in step with seasons dance.
The endless song of their voice
attempts to entrance.
But within each drop, within its secret chamber can be seen,
the hollow empty loneliness
reflected in my being.

The molded earth that warms my feet
I see with firm belief,
that it will lead my path astray
of the hidden reef.
But betrayal is the type of word the earth has taught me of.
For this is what my faith has given,
instead of producing love.

The haunting beauty of the world
remains to me aloof.
Its perfection dwells within my eyes
yet I seek further proof.
For even though all is one and you are part of me,
I thought I was a part of you, but
the union has ceased to be.

And round about without a doubt,
those tendrils of the air.
Those wisps of empty nothingness
that touch and leave all bare.
They come to me and sing to me of all that isn’t there,
and leave me feeling the empty ache,
torn beyond repair.

extra hours …no breaks..

OK Friday started out great because i didn’t have to go work. since classes started I’ve been knocked back to 20 hours a week at the computing center on campus which is fine with me, but i have picked up extra hours up at the radio station. apparently if i want time off i need like 2 months in advance notice which is fine. however a co-worker of mine needs ..ooooh 3 mins of advanced notice and guess who is the only one that can cover for him …. ME! … its always me so i’m going to put in two 10 hour shift TWO! and i had no choice in whether i wanted to work it or not …i had to work it. so my weekend was shot all to hell. guess ill have time to do my homework now that’s one plus of the long shifts. just nine more months and I’m done and outta here so long as i decided where i’m going.

extra hours …no breaks..

OK Friday started out great because i didn’t have to go work. since classes started I’ve been knocked back to 20 hours a week at the computing center on campus which is fine with me, but i have picked up extra hours up at the radio station. apparently if i want time off i need like 2 months in advance notice which is fine. however a co-worker of mine needs ..ooooh 3 mins of advanced notice and guess who is the only one that can cover for him …. ME! … its always me so i’m going to put in two 10 hour shift TWO! and i had no choice in whether i wanted to work it or not …i had to work it. so my weekend was shot all to hell. guess ill have time to do my homework now that’s one plus of the long shifts. just nine more months and I’m done and outta here so long as i decided where i’m going.

working out after so long …

well since school started again so did Aikido. Boy am i freaking sore i hurt all over. i realized how much ive gotten out of shape over the summer. so now i have to start getting back into shape. Its good to be back on the mat again practicing aikido ive missed it. well now its time to get up and get ready for class… yuck.. class

working out after so long …

well since school started again so did Aikido. Boy am i freaking sore i hurt all over. i realized how much ive gotten out of shape over the summer. so now i have to start getting back into shape. Its good to be back on the mat again practicing aikido ive missed it. well now its time to get up and get ready for class… yuck.. class