what i do when i need answers i turn to what i believe is the truth of our lives. There are so many similarities among the religions people ignore. they forget why the words were written it wasn’t to be used as proof people are wrong. to point out someone else’s fault, because you believe differently. its to remind us there is hope, and it starts with letting go and living free of worry, free of the bitterness, be happy with what you have and loving each other. having a true smile. that is what it says … but no one truly sees that. i have lived a long time with nothing but hate in my heart. only recently have i begun to see what that hate has done to me. so i have begun the fight to let go of everything that i hate. no reason to hold on. no reason to never smile again, that hate prevented be from ever knowing what a true smile is.

Growing up was very hard for me. not having any true friends. going to school each and every day being made fun of for thirteen years by kids all i wanted to do was be friends with. For some reason i was not allowed to have those friends i was destined to be alone. My life has never been easy, but no one really has an easy life. my life is no different than anyone else’s life. but in my eyes it always look greener on the other side, however there is someone out there that sees me in greener pasture.

I have come to terms and im ready to share this with anyone that wants to read and if you disagree with what i have to say that’s fine i’m not posting to say i’m right you are wrong its not how i do things i’m posting my view and if you dont except it that fine by me you can leave.

i have had one person i have always kept close to me and that is my grandfather, grandpa salem. he is a man that lived for his family and worked hard to make that family happy. i can never remember that man without a smile on his face i never could remember him ever being angry. i’m sure my mom or my aunt and uncles may remember differently since he was the one that raised them. i was after all just his grandson. he was a good man taken from us too early. i believe we each have a start and finish in our lives and between those two points we have paths and doors to choose. we get to choose our own paths some are easier some are hard. some are right some are wrong, but we never know which until we choose. do i believe in God … yes i believe there is a God … do i believe the bible is the say all live all … no … to me the bible is a book of stories written to remind us how to live. However taken out of context the bible can say things that make people believe one thing over the other. just like anything else that is taken out context. that is how it is people translate and interpret differently. our problem is that the scriptures  should only be interpreted by us for us not by someone saying “this is how i read it so you must believe it the same way as i do”

i read some where cant remember where but something stuck with me…

Jesus taught two really big things “love one another.” and “He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone” you know whats interesting is that Buddha said “Hatred does not cease by hatred, but only by love; this is the eternal rule.” then we have the Jews amazing even yet “Love your neighbor like yourself.” Second, “Examine the contents, not the bottle.” how about the Hindus you say “Do not get angry or harm any living creature, but be compassionate and gentle; show good will to all.” last but not least and you may hate me for adding this BUT Muhammad taught “A true Muslim is the one who does not defame or abuse others; but the truly righteous becomes a refuge for humankind, their lives and their properties.” also, “Do you love your creator? Love your fellow-beings first.”

they all taught to love one another. what do we do; well not that. They never said, love everybody except for (fill in the blank) they taught us to love each other not to pass judgment that is not our place. for each of us will be judged upon when it is our time.

all anyone today cares about is themselves or they only care about what they think is right and wrong when comparing their lives to others. we try to force everyone to see tunnel vision to only see one path, but that path is not the same for everyone. i sat down awhile ago and decided i didn’t want to follow everyone else’s path i only want my path that’s the only path i am going to be happy with. i let go of all those thing i hated about those kids i grew up with i forgive them for all the crap they put me through because later on in life i have met quite a few people who know the true me that know i am a good man. i can be myself with them. i don’t need the approval of anyone anymore. i am living my life for me one step at a time.closer to getting my true smile

so as i ponder how i want to say the rest of what is in my heart i leave you with this:

Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Buddha said “Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.” …. coincidence probably not