SO it begins….

It’s been almost one week since I moved into my new house ands I’m still not settled is going to be at least 2 more weeks before I will have my furniture right now I’m just making use of an air mattress and the bare necessities.

Work is going great this is the first job I really enjoy and I’m glad I was given the opportunity to have this job I’m learning a lot and I’m also learning that I’m a perfectionist when it comes to designing. I guess that is just me though I’m that way with every thing from my artwork and writings to working on computers everything has to be done just right and sometimes its frustrating sometimes, but fun none the less.

Normally on my blog I tend to not write about certain aspects of my life. In this post I’ve decided to bend the rules a bit. I have got a lady friend of mine one I care deeply about and am glad to have the friendship that I do have with her, however, I’ve a bit of a crush on her and I’ve been afraid to tell her how I feel about her in fear that our friendship will cease to exist. as some of you may know about the one a few years into my past there was another that I cared about and she ripped my heart out and tore it to shreds after I told her how I felt and I haven’t talked to her since then.

So I’m being very apprehensive about telling this friend my true feeling about. I feel so much like I’m in high school again. However I value the friendship I have created with each and every one of my friends each friendship is unique in each its own.

Now I know this decision is only one I can make however I do enjoy insight from any one willing to give some. Do I tell her or do I just not tell her it’s a difficult problem that has cons and pros of each. Not knowing exactly how she feels about me makes it even harder to throw in a curve ball like this….