Biebs' World

Saturday I went up to Salina to visit some old friends I had not seen in what seems like ages. was not really looking forward to the drive up there, but it turns out to be a really nice drive once you hit the interstate it is a breeze. It is a much more enjoyable drive than going to Wichita. One drive I am eager to repeat in the near future.

As I made it to Tom and Carver’s place. I phoned carver and he was not there he was out and about with his girls and buying Lamp guts. so I sat out on the steps enjoying the nice weather. I’ve also learned this weekend that Carver has become a local Kingpin, he organizes the theft, I mean the “acquisition” of certain “abandoned” properties through the use of his force powers, apparently when you enter university for a PR degree they teach you the ways of the dark side … how I missed that I will never know!

so we hung out most of the day talking computers and nerd stuff, that’s what we do, we are GEEK!  Also I donated a Motherboard, cpu, and ram to hopefully help Carver get his computer back up and running. it was the guts of my old gaming computer and just sitting around collecting dust. as evening progressed I needed to move on besides Carver had a fancy dinner to go to!

On my way out of town I stopped by one more place Logan’s Roadhouse. Thanks to my shining influence from family guy I had to restrain myself from yelling “ROADHOUSE” and performing a round house kick to the face every 5 mins. A very dear friend of mine just started working there as a waitress, she is an awesome waitress, no matter of what she thinks. You are awesome! I had some fish(I can’t spell the name of the exact fish I had) it was good I was thinking it was going to be a bit spicy, but I forget what is spicy to “normal” people has no real effect on me. It was delicious regardless. I also had some sautéed mushrooms with and some fries gotta have my fries … to end it all off a slice of cheese cake New York style it was good, but my homemade from scratch is better. it filled me up and I walked away full!  I will be back!

this week has been a great week, simply for the fact that I have felt better that I have in a very long time. for the first time I can say I love my job, I love what I am doing. I have not been overly stress about anything. I have been writing more I have actually been working on my art more as well though none of it is complete enough to share.  I have found a muse someone that has inspired me and when I think about them I just want to keep moving forward they are a great friend to me and if you are reading this thank you! you may not think of if the same way I do, but I am glad to have you around!

the fact that lately I have been in a very foul mood and somewhat depress about everything. Being in this good mood and high spirits has been great and I hope it decides to stick around longer. my dreams have normalized (kind of) I am not running for my life. they are still weird, but they have returned in beauty in their settings.

You might have noticed the lack of minecraft post well I’m taking a break from minecraft and started playing Star Wars the Old Republic , it is a lot of fun and playing a sith character has been fun. I don’t have to be Mr. nice guy and I can run around causing havoc and no one thinks twice about it. plus the dark side has cookies ..

I have also started playing Skyrim again. I had forgotten how much fun that game was, slaying dragons and trying not to take an arrow to the knee which apparently if you are a city guard that is a prerequisite. I am sure it is probably on the application. the other night playing I stumbled upon another dragon I was like alright let’s do this as I got closer those something felt wrong next thing I know there was a dragon priest, which is apparently equipped with the fire staff of “f*ck your shit up” because after 4 hits from his damn fireball I was dead … after reloading I decided to stay away from that mountain. decided to do another dungeon while in this dungeon I was attacked by a damn vampire and got vampirism or Sanguinare Vampiris  as they call it didn’t realize it until after a few more days that’s when something wasn’t right …  I was getting  a message saying “You feel strangely weakened by the sunrise“. At sunset,  ”You feel a strange thirst come over you” well crap I thought … after Google searches I found out I was an eff’n vampire and I also found out I could cure it! so I spent a good couple of hours getting my cure … I also learned that you can only get Sanguinare Vampiris from their ranged attacks so now when I come across a vampire i rush it and go melee on its ass.

so be prepared to read more about my Skyrim adventures I’m sure they will be hilarious.

In dreams, we enter a world that’s entirely our own.

We’ve all woken up from weird dreams and wondered what they mean. In one part of my dream I was driving and my car ran off the road and kept going and going and I said to myself, “Oh well, if you can’t stop it just relax and go with it.” And that’s what I did. And the car came to a stop and I got out and started admiring the beautiful view. then I noticed someone I wanted to talk to but she started to run away and I followed in chase.  then I was at a house, but it looked different as with most dreams. It looked more like ruins right in the middle of a thick forest, and instead of low fences, the area was surrounded by high stone walls. I stood in the center of the house, and in front of me was a vast overgrown garden, with crawling plants covering most of the stone walls. I turned and realized that there was a ladder right next to me that led to a dark and creepy basement, and then I was told by the woman I was chasing in the dream that no one went down to the basement because there was a crocodile who is always hungry and would attack anyone or anything alive that came near it.

To escape the area I climbed over the walls using the vines that grew along it as I jumped to the ground on the other side There are wheat fields all around… just field after field as far as the eye can see… much like the scene at the end of gladiator. I’m there with this female I had been chasing and I couldn’t put my finger on it as to who she was this entire dream I kept thinking to myself “I know her what is her name” .. we started walking together and we came to a house. we started  walking right into this house and go up the stairs. Inside there’s a skittish guy who’s seen or done something that has greatly distressed him, and seeing us freaks him out even more. He can’t figure out what to do with us and he’s mostly just bouncing around the room trying to figure out what to do. I walk up to him and knock him out and that was that we walked back out into the fields. This girl I’m with starts talking to me about the wheat fields, and at this point I interject “so this is the part where you tie this allegory together and try to make sense of this movie?” and she laughs and concedes that’s where she was going. I walk with her some more then she stops I continue and look back and ask why she isn’t coming. she just smiles at me and waves. I tell her “I will come back” , but she tells me that she won’t be there. She then vanishes and I’m standing alone the world changed yet again to an unknown world.  I turn take an arrow to the knee, at this point I yell “damn it skyrim! f*ck your arrows”

I wake up with a cramp in my leg …

this is a follow up post from the other day … it has spark some interest and my mail box has been busy …

The term ‘geek’ was originally used to described someone that performed in circus acts and carnivals. The term changed over time and was used interchangeably with ‘nerd’ to describe socially-inept individuals. Today the word is the exact opposite of its original meaning; a term used to inflict social cruelty is now a term of endearment, everyone and their dog self-proclaims themselves as a geek. Today, a geek is synonymous with anyone who has an Internet connection. Being really passionate or skillful at something is not something you can fake; it takes a lot of work to be a geek. Being a geek isn’t something you decide to do. People who are obsessed with something often don’t even know it until others point it out to them, they are just doing what they like without thinking about it. The Lord of the Rings used to be ours and only ours simply because of the sheer goddamn thickness of the books. Twenty years later, the entire cast and crew would be trooping onstage at the Oscars to collect their statuettes, and replicas of the One Ring would be sold as bling.

If you are obsessed/passionate about something, keep doing what you love and share with others with interest same as you. If you think something is interesting but aren’t willing to put the time and effort into understanding it deeply or becoming extremely skillful at it, do everyone a favor and call yourself what you are: a casual hobbyist.

As life goes on you are subjected to many different influences. Sometimes you take a wrong turn or end up on the wrong path which causes you to lose track of who you are. There are way too many people in this world who want to take advantage of you or use you for their own gains. People will lie to you, trick you and abuse your honesty if you let them. It’s of course crazy to be paranoid that everyone is out to get you but it’s always good to be cautious of the intentions of others. Simple things like having a roof over your head, the freedom to travel or walk around your city without being shot or arrested, food on the table, loving friends and family etc. are what you should be grateful for every day. When things get difficult I like to see them as a test of some sort. It may be a test of patience, a test of belief or faith or a test of determination. This allows you to rationalize the difficulties you’re facing so that you can stop worry and focus all your energy on getting through the test as best you can. If you believe in something, don’t let others talk you out of it. Avoid negative people and nay-sayers but if you have to, stand up for what you believe in. Be prepared to fight for it.

Always remember who you are and where you came from. If your current life path is putting you in situations that you’re not happy with, make drastic changes and get back to the person who you are.

It doesn’t happen very often that i get to make someones day, and the fact that i made them smile means the world to me. when we smile it brightens the day not only for yourself but for everyone around you. now-a-days you don’t get the helping hand from strangers much anymore because society has made people a wreck and chaotic.

i guess you could say i am a rarity these days. yeah it may cost me some change but if i can make you smile well that’s enough for me. a simple gift with a simple note is all it takes and with technology you can be miles apart to make that gift happen. showing some one that they mean enough to you to do something to brighten their day and not expect anything in return …